so many thoughts right now.
the past few weeks have been such a whirlwind. i guess since spring break actually.
sitting here in my onezie with my chill lime beer, my window’s open and i can hear the rain behind my kings of convenience album. this is a pretty good feeling.
i’m so happy to put the past academic year behind me. what a crapshow. maybe the most important thing that i’ve learned so far is that reverse culture shock is worse than initial culture shock. and that it’s okay to give your whole heart away, cause there will always be more to give.
anyway..
i just facebook chatted with my roomie for the next year, David. he’s from Spain, and pretty much one of the silliest, smartest, craziest, most honest people i know. he tells me i’m gorgeous on the regular, and is always there for a last minute pep talk for any situation. i can’t wait to live with him.
me: we can SNUGGLE partyyy! with animals and babies and celery and popcorn and faires!
David: YUHUUUUUU AND HUGE MUTANT RABBITS THAT MASSACRE NORMAL HAMSTERS and we bet.
yep. pretty awesome.
this is all random …
societies seem to have general ideas about subjects. how we *should* think and feel about things, how we shouldn’t. based on sociological studies of people, data, statistics…
what if i think something differently? what if a lot of people do?
how are definitions formed, and why do we listen to them?
tonight, at some point during my amazingly relaxing 45 minute shower, i was imagining if there were myself and five other people on an island, how would it be governed…every single subject is so political, it seems that in many circumstances the vigor of a cause is more vital than the cause itself…that the passion behind a movement is more essential than the end result of it.
we need the real, and the good, the bad, and the ugly that comes with it.
prob don’t read this unless you enjoy getting mind effed [[it’s almost like we’re squirrels all gathering up our own nuts, and if the other squirrels don’t get any nuts (even if we have more than we need) then they’re screwed, who cares, it’s their faults for not working as hard or as smartly as we did to get them. EFF that! the squirrels who have wayyy more nuts than they need should give the other squirrels some nuts, because they’ll still have more than they need, and the other squirrels won’t die of starvation cause they aint had no nuts. i don’t really care why the other squirrels weren’t able to gather the necessary amount of nuts, and the more successful squirrels shouldn’t either because they should be preoccupying their minds with more interesting information, probably so that they can end up getting more nuts. ……it sucks. it just sucks.]]
sleepy.
![this is my friend Chelsea. i ran into her at Gillie’s this morning while i was having breakfast with my boyfriend, and like usual it brightened my day to see her. we mentioned that she’d be moving away from Blacksburg soon, and when i left, i started thinking about her and how freaking awesome it is to know her!:) it seems fitting to write a tumblr post for her, since she’s the one that helped me get a tumblr and she always does this for people herself :)
she is bold in the beautiful kind of way, the kind of way that gets your attention. yeah she is beautiful, but not the kind of beautiful that makes you jealous. it’s the kind that is so radiant that it warms you up, a smile that makes you think your day will be okay if it’s not and makes it even better if it is. a humble beautiful that doesn’t seek to manipulate or hurt, just be.
she and i have spoken about many things. she’s the kind of person who can handle and be entrusted with loads information at one time. the very first time we hung out, we went on a lunch date to Souvlakis in downtown Blacksburg. she tried Orangina for the first time and loved it, naturally :p. we talked about our majors and what we wanted to do, and how society tries to frame the perfect picture of [high school—> graduation—> 4yeardegree—> workforce] but how neither of us wanted to mold to it. our thoughts kept building on each other’s, so much that i’m sure that if someone were to start listening they wouldn’t know what we were talking about at all haha.
that’s kind of how most of our conversations go. they’re always more like discussions, even if it’s only for 5 minutes. she values free thought and expression, and for that i am always completely interested in what she has to say or write. she is passionate about what she thinks and what she believes. some things she loves are God, photography, and developing and understanding for the human mind and how it works. she’s good at being creative and finding a balance between putting energy into the things she does, and taking time to rest in the Lord she believes in. i am an avid anti-theist and view God as a vehement dictator, know nothing about photography except google picaso, am much more interested in politics than psychology, and get most of my rest on the days i sleep through hangovers. your jaw might be dropped by now, but these things neither unsettle nor surprise Chelsea. she loves me fully for me. we don’t share the same passions or interests. but we respect one another. we love listening to and challenging one another, and what are beliefs without a canvas and someone to challenge them? even though our beliefs are totally different, we both place value on free thought and intellect, it’s very easy to think together and share ideas, and that is how we relate best. that’s what i love most about her!
i love you Chelsea. just like everyone else whose lives you’ve impacted. as you graduate, take the good memories from VT with you, even the tiniest ones like drinking Orangina with me or meeting up in Pamplin to talk about boys. :p big kisses
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